This is the start of my journey... I don't know what or where my destination is going to be but I do know that all I want is just a little happiness. I am not an interesting person but I do need a place where I can express myself without feeling like I have to censor myself just so I don't offend my so-called loved ones. *Sigh* I think most people have a love-hate relationship with their family and I have always wanted to be the good little girl my parents wish but alas I am not what they want as a daughter. Although they have never voiced that thought, I still feel as if I am not the kind of daughter they wish they have. I am too headstrong and I tend to have an opinion about everything. Nowadays, I seldom voice those opinions anymore because all I want is a little peace and quiet after a day's work....
Enough about this shit!! Today is a public holiday and I spent most of the day watching some TV shows and listening to Kelly Clarkson. My brother, his wife and daughter also came over to for a visit and I spent some time with my 3 year old niece. She's running around like she's high on sugar (doubt it) but I wonder where the hell does she get the energy from! She also banged a little on the piano and all of a sudden, I felt like playing again. I did a piss poor job playing since I can only remember like one song and I still flubbed at it. Kinda sad since I started learning when I was five though I stopped at fourteen since I was never any good at it due to the lack of practice. When I was playing some song I learnt ten years ago, Schumann's Wild Horseman was playing in my head. I tried to play that tune but after a few spectacular fails, I gave up and decided to you tube it. It's better than banging away on the piano and making a racket... So this is the video I found of some kid playing the song.
It's good but I still feel like it lacks something or maybe it's my envy rearing its ugly head. So my mood went from good to blah to bad in the span of one hour.... I realised I needed to do something so I won't spend the rest of the day feeling like crap over some kid's ability to play the fucking piano better than me. I decided to watch Shakira's Oral Fixation tour and I have to say I love this chick! She can belly-dance like nobody's business and her songs are so fucking catchy but I have to admit her Latin songs are way way better than her English ones even though I have no fucking idea what the hell is she singing! One of my favorites is "Si Te Vas" and I love this live version she did in Rock in Rio!! It's fantastic the way she got the crowd singing!
Amazing!! I love it! and sometimes I wish my Kelly Clarkson can be like her sometimes. As much as I love Kelly, I think she can do much better looks wise and as much as I love her songs and her concerts, sometimes I wish she makes better fashion choices. *Sigh* it's the superficial me.... I realized that most of the female celebrities I love are not exactly stick thin figures that seem to be all the rage these days. Like Kate Winslet and Kelly Clarkson.... Both blondes and both are not exactly thin but they are crazy talented at what they do and I love the fact that they are not exactly conventionally thin by today's unforgiving standards.... Love that they don't bow down to this unrealistic standard!!! Well it's time to end this post and today I will end it with my Kelly singing one of my favorite songs withe HER idol, Reba Mcentire!!! Here's "Up to the Mountain"!!!
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